I’m just trying to process this really weird feeling in me right now.

I said I’m happy for you, to see that you’re getting back on track, and potentially will be doing better than the last. But if I were to be completely honest tonight, I felt more anxious than happy. And maybe a little wishing that was me instead.

And it became apparent to me that other things aside, I’ve also been seeing you as competition.

That I’ve been lowkey comparing my scorecard against yours.
This evening in particular, ignited this fire in me like never before – I have to start getting my sh*t together and I need to be doing better.

And only you have this power to spur me like that.

And suddenly, I want to fight again.

Guess a little bit of competition does keep things interesting sometimes.

And maybe, you would be my trigger event.